Tuesday, December 9, 2008

The End of Infancy

Yes, Anonymous, I know I failed. See there in the sidebar to the right? I admit it. So there. Whatever. On to more important things.

I have been so scattered for the last week. I know the source of my lack of focus: Zane is positively careening toward the big 0h-1! just three days from today. Try as I might, and no matter what I do to distract myself from this fact, I can't help but reflect on the last year and wallow in sentimentality, which leads to lack of focus, which leads to scatterbrained-ness and so on and so forth.

I'm not the type to live in the past, forsaking the joy of today, tomorrow and the next day. But the last year - actually, the last eighteen months - has been amazing. The greatest joy I've ever known is Zane: a tiny, sleepy, snuggly, contented bundle of sweetness who has grown into the happiest, smiliest, most expressive, sweetest little boy.

All of my friends who are mothers comfort my sadness by reminding me that it "just gets better." It's hard to believe that when your own baby is a newborn, and you are enjoying every minute of their baby-ness, and you want so much for life to revert to time-lapse mode.

But as we approach Friday, I am more sure that my girlfriends are right. Zane is every bit the baby who arrived on a clear and balmy December evening, under a waxing crescent moon flanked by bright stars. A calm, alert and observant child from the first minute of life. Confident in himself and his parents, and trusting in his sense of place in this life. He has thrived and, of that, I am especially proud.

It will be hard to say goodbye to infancy on Friday; but that's life. There is always a new adventure.


karen said...

Enjoy every bit of Zane's last few days of infancy! Before you know it, you'll be getting ready to mark ten years with him and you'll wonder how it could possibly be true.

Laura said...

When reading your title to this post there was a sharp intake of breath! I cannot fathom that it has been a year. I knew it was coming with the arrival of the b'day invitation making that announcement and still my mind reels. Where does the time go? He is such a precious little one and it brings me joy that you are revelling in every moment of him. Kiss him for his Auntie Lala. We are still in school on his big day and will miss the party, but we will be there in spirit and send love and hugs aplenty. Aunt Laura

Keysgal@QuietWater said...

Oh my little missy the fun has only begun. I have said over and over how much I enjoyed every single minute (well not every single minute but close....) of your (and your sister's) growing-up years.It does pass way too fast and that's why it is so important to enjoy every single day as it comes. I look forward to seeing all of you this weekend and giving our little boy a birthday smooch. Love you.

Anonymous said...

Holy cow, babies sound great! I'd get one except for the commitment. Maybe they'll put out a Wii little baby.

LMP said...

The best way to stave off sentimentality regarding the passage of infancy is to have a second infant. :)